Thursday, January 21, 2010♥
{2:58 PM}
2ND month together♥(:
and just yesterday, had an argument w Boyf.
Not really an argument where both of us were screaming our heads off.
But more like I made him angry, &he was doing all the scolding.
&the reason for the arguement?
Because I kept my problems to myself, &told him nothing happened. &He claims that I lied to him when something did happen.
I keep emotional problems to myself out of habit.
I have been doing that for years, which is I I'm unable to properly voice out how I feel.
'Keeping to myself', he finds that I am trying to avoid him, not wanting to let him know what happened.
But the truth is, I didnt want him to worry. Thus I kept quiet.
End up, he flared up.
I understand that he cares, which is why he got angry.
So even though I meant no harm, I was in the wrong.
&everything is my fault.
Seriously, I need to reflect on myself.
&he mentioned that he was 'sick &tired' of guessing what I am up to, &also of my 'games'.
&that he was very repulsed by all my 'nothing happened& neverminds'
Note to self - Reaching the limit. In the process of breaking down.