Wednesday, January 20, 2010♥
{11:20 AM}
aint blogging as much than compared to previously.
but dont worry, I will never abandon my blog(:
Loadsa things on my mind lately.
mostly Relationship, &School.
argh. Fucked up life is seriously screwing with me &playing tricks on me.
Relationship
'ILoveYou' these three words are sacred in the language of Love.
But now, you can hear iloveyou's everywhere, it's being hurled at each other so easily.
As for me, those three words can be seen in majority of mt smses.
But if you want me to say it to you straight in the face, It's abit hard.
For me, I wont go telling my Boyf that I love him, unless he says it first.
I know that I love him, but saying it out is still a struggle for me.
Seriously need to learn how to say those 3words properly.
School.
OH, FUCK IT.
School has been terrible since the first day, it still is now.
So looking forward to holidays, which is like in March.
DANG.
&ponned two days of lesson this week alr, my attendance is really sucky now.
But I just cant stand going to school anymore.
The place that I used to love most, Now I hate it.
The reason why I am so hung up on this is because I actually made an effort for school this time.
In the past, I was myself.
I mean the side of me that was loud, fierce &straightforward.
That is the first impression you'll have of me.
&That is also the real me, I just cant stay still nor keep quiet.
But that 'ME' is hated by many people.
Being loud &fierce is not a good way to make friends.
Which is why I decided to change when I entered poly.
New school, New friends, New beginnings.
So I toned down alot, &kept my mouth shut.
&yes, I began to have friends.
&fuck, now I am being hated by my class.
Despite my changes, I still get this kind of attitude at the end of the day.
Lesson learnt - Dont ever change for anyone. It's not worth it.
Note to self: Falling apart soon. Very soon.